Opia

by Lewis Findlay

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All music and vocals written and performed by Lewis Findlay.
Mixing/mastering/additional programming by Martin Oswald.

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released May 4, 2017

Thanks as always to Martin Oswald (@ozsoundengineer / Oz Audio)for being a legend on production,Mog (S.I.O),Dunt Club,Chateaux Bas,Yung Sneymba,SoS,my boys in Magenta,The sofa-surfer massive,Team Amazing,D'moooonique (Pinky Swears) and Big Casino Records.

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Lewis Findlay Edinburgh, UK

Edinburgh based singer/songwriter/Lion King enthusiast.

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Track Name: Echo46° (Under The Werther)
I will leave no footsteps in the sand, I didnt want to change the world, I just wanted to reach you.
So I'll erase my name from off the page so no one will remember me.
I just wanted to reach you.

I will leave no footsteps in the sand, I didnt want to change the world, I just wanted to reach you.
So I'll erase my name from off the page,I will become no memory.
I just wanted to reach you.
Track Name: About Punctuation.
So this is how it feels so to be
Falling out of love with all the world
Next to me you're probably the saddest story i have ever heard
I know my humours darker,my self deprication lately's over zealous
But all your disregard for life arouses mine inside,it makes me jealous

Someone thought that were being properly clever, "a semi-colons just a breathing space so keep it together", well I ain't having that I'm still of the mindset I want to sever,put a full stop after everything and end it all together and im well aware this situation can't go on forever that's why I find myself psyching myself up to ask you wether you could do me this one last favour.

Please kill me
Oh,please,please kill me
I know exactly what I want to be - dead,forgotten,gone.
So,please,please kill me.


Funny how the same thoughts,the ones who used to keep me inside silence,
Are the same ones I have now that only serve to drive me into violence
''Oh,we're here for you" "Talk to us"
Lately conversations such a chore
Even if I was of the mind to,I'd still disencline to - self pity is just such a crashing bore.

Recently it seems to me I'm more in the position to be looking at my situation and the way I'm living,realising deep inside that it has been my own submission that has left me as the centre of most of this attrition
And I'm sitting home and lonely and I'm secretly wishing I wish living to do more than feed all of my own addictions so help me get some peace.

And please kill me
Oh,please,please kill me.

Its far too long a ride in any case
Seems I'll do anything to make it briefer
Not here for a long time? Just here for a good time?
I am not here for either


Well....
Someone thought that they were being properly clever, "a semi colons just a breathing space so keep it together", well I ain't having that im still of the mindset I want to sever every loose tie,I wont live a lie and fullstops are forever and i'm well aware the situations gotten worse than ever,I find I am less inclined to try an pull my mind together so help me get some peace

and please kill me.

Oh please,please kill me
I know exactly what i want to be,
Cut the chord and council please,
Please kill me
Oh please,please kill me
I know exactly what I want to be
Dead,forgotten,gone - so please,
Please kill me.
Track Name: Hindsight Helps
I spent my formative years swearing
I would never see them wasted
And now realise my worst fears,the irony is
Have I wasted them through being wasted
And all this time to contemplate,all the while lacking more than half the memory of it
All my life to bare such a weight
So safe and secure,but nothings ever as it seems

And thats why right now everything seems fine but I think somewhere down the line
We'll start to see what we could be if we hadnt wasted so much time
You know its not a cry for help,no
Its a cry for someone else
To recognise the good in me that I can't seem to see myself
But Hindsight helps

Reaching out with both hands trying to collect all the things that had missed you
I say that time is all I need but time's all I have left
Its such a tragedy you know that I would willingly give you
All this time that you require but you throw it all away thats why these days when conversation turns your way
You find yourself constantly under fire
Has the way that we've behaved merited us an early grave?

Because right now everything seems fine but I think somewhere down the line
We'll start to see what we could be if we hadnt wasted so much time
You know its not a cry for help,no
Its a cry for someone else
To recognise the good in me that I can't seem to see myself

When its your last stand on your liberty it's still hard enough to speak
Though you're so straight up with honesty that makes it harder still to breathe.

Because right now although everything seems fine but I think somewhere down the line
We'll start to see what we could be if we hadn't wasted so much time
You know its not a cry for help,no
Its a cry for someone else
To recognise the good in me that I can't seem to see myself
But Hindsight helps.
Track Name: 13/11/14 (Noah's arc.)
Heart and lungs exploding on a moving train
It was like you genuinely didn't know
Cruel irony follows remembrance day
Let it go.
Every word struck down by the lips your smitten by
Written all over your face
So unnescessarilly by jealousy bitten
You fade my grace.

With your name tatoo'd across his arm
We fight but we remain a victim to our stars
But they dont have to speak for us yet
All our scars,but they dont seem sondeepnin the flesh

Now everything that you wonder -
This marks the start.
Still drenched in blood,from tearing myself asunder
And you still rip me apart.
Now that blood seems set to cause confusion of which I want no part
Curse the fact I still ache for the illusion
Your complicated heart.

With your name tatoo'd across his arm
We fight but we remain a victim to our stars
But they dont have to speak for us yet
All our scars - but they dont seem so deep on the flesh
So show some heart
Even the little that you have left
Travelled so far just to get a break from all your stars

Is my name still tatoo'd across your heart?
We fight but we remain a victim to our stars
But they dont have to speak for us yet
All our scars - but they dont seem so deep on the flesh
So show some heart
Even the little that you have left
We've come so far,destroy it again and break from all our stars.
Track Name: Jouska
See,that's the funny thing about history,
they say its written by the victor
to describe how they made it out with no regrets
Meanwhile I compile a legacy thats
transcribed in a hand more bitter
with a list of memories that I cannot forget

No peace before you and love after you
Im relinquishing a life that I once had
and now I dont want back
I am giving in

And so to you whom i'd have given my bame
you will never know.

So I dont need you opinions,I know my own mind
Its up to me to decide when I am wrong
All I know is that when im by your side Inknow Im right where I belong.

They say that actions speak louder than words,if thats true
then you'll find that you don't have too far to look
A fleeting moment will provide you with the proof
I'd prefer it because even I'm sick an tired of using overly grandiose terms to describe it
If you want it all laid bare heres the simple truth

- it feels like I've lost the biggest part of me
Somethings been torn from inside of the heart of me
I've changed so much lately that its beyond belief
When every new day just brings fresh scars to me,I sit at home blackening lungs,hardening arteries
Everything with me
Cries out for relief

And so,to you who I'd still give my name
You will never know


So I dont need you opinions,I know my own mind
Its up to me to decide when I am wrong
All I know is that when im by your side Inknow Im right where I belong.
Track Name: Aokigahara
Irony - something I have learned to live with of late
A re-occuring motif to me,runs through everything,let me demonstrate -
Take it from the start,
The one thing that holds it together
Is what tears me apart
I cant see that changing ever.
              
                 
Partially blinded by the back-track spin of your vibe
No harmony plus a nauseous ache that eats me inside
An Albatross around my neck that weighs me down as it hangs there,
Coupled with a long list of regrets,becomes a weight that I cant bear


So dont talk to me casually as if it's something I could have forgot
Because the sadness is a thing that I could live with but the hopelessness is not.
And I feel like I should mention I say it with the best intentions but the cruelest irony -

I dont want you to leave but I need you to go
Because I dont mind to bleed,I just hate to let it show
I dont know what you believe but I need you to know,pathetic as it seems,its because i miss you so.


Irony - post you who had saved my life twice as well
Easily back into the same patterns and habits I fell
At the end of the road
I've always made the grave my destination
And every time my heart explodes
I know that you're the detonation

So dont talk to me casually as if it's something I could have forgot
Because the sadness is a thing that I could live with but the hopelessness is not.
And I feel like I should mention I say it with the best intentions but the cruelest irony -

I dont want you to leave but I need you to go
Because I dont mind to bleed,I just hate to let it show
I dont know what you believe but I need you to know,pointless as it seems,its because I miss you so


                You have all that is me now.


So dont talk to me casually as if it's something I could have forgot
Because the sadness is a thing that I could live with but the hopelessness is not.
And I feel like I should mention I say it with the best intention but the cruelest irony -

I dont want you to leave but I need you to go
Because I dont mind to bleed,I just hate to let it show
I dont know what you believe but I need you to know,as hopeless as it seems,its because I miss you so.


You have all that is me now.
Track Name: The Final Stage
Soon will come the time  - one day I will walk into the sea,
Make the smooth transittion from current problem to forgotten memory

Never cared for much and with the one thing that really matters the most
It seems like I can make no ground
And the effort tax me,end them all,
And with the situation as such
The resolution is as simple as I make it sound
The plan was in no other way to be memorable

And if I cant broaden my horizons I should just walk out to join them
Swallow all my pride as I go out with the tide

I will leave no footsteps on the sand,I didnt want to change the world
I just wanted to reach you
So I'll erase my name from of the page so no one will remember me

Oh,beautiful,the irony,the problem always was in letting go
To finally find peace,learning to release,
Giving in to the undertow

Im not a brave man I'm a coward
And i dont believe in life youre granted one wish
Strong enough to change everything I've destroyed and devoured
And if I cant reach out to you
There's nothing more I've accomplished in life
That seems more worth continuing

And if I cant broaden my horizons I should just walk out to join them
Leave nothing to find as I leave nothing behind

I will leave no footsteps on the sand,I didnt want to change the world
I just wanted to reach you
So I'll erase my name from of the page
I will become no memory

They'll say we gave them hell
And we came off pretty well
Just a dreamer in a crowd
Now the dream has changed and it screams out
"Leave nothing alive,make sure we do this right"
Lets hope the ways that we've behaved
Are absolved beneath the waves

I know how this will come to be
One day soon walk into the sea

I will leave no footsteps on the sand,I didnt want to change the world
I just wanted to reach you
So I'll erase my name from of the page so
No one will remeber me
I just wanted to reach you.
I will leave no footsteps on the sand,I didnt want to change the world
I just wanted to reach you
So I'll erase my name from of the page
I will become no memory.