Paper Giants

by Lewis Findlay

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All lyrics and music by Lewis Findlay, additional instrumentation, recording and production by Zambian Astronaught. Recorded, mixed and mastered at ZAHQ.

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released June 25, 2014

Many,many thanks to Stuart Jackson (@Zambianastro) for his continued work (and patience...) with me,making this album what it is. Thanks to everybody who has supported,come out to shows,posted,liked,linked,emailed,favourited,retweeted etc that has made everything so far worthwhile and this album possible. Much love to old school Team Amazing,thanks to Adam Holmes for his input,Robert Currie (robcurrie.net) for his contribution and everyone who has helped along the way. Carry on.

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Track Name: Carry On
I tried so hard to demonstrate how hard it is to run with lead weights
tied around your neck and round your legs
and when you finally realised what i was trying to vocalise
you said whatever speed I made you'd best

so that's when the plan was hatched that you'd strap on lead weights to match
and how they slowed you down
its funny how when face to face,neither of us can take the pace
racing on common ground

And I say all things come in time but you need reasons to define
why you feel untrue
and I dont think we're made of glass but if we are it's those who've cracked that the light shines through
and you and I will carry on

you and I will carry
on and on to something new and if it means that much to you
we can take the path of least resistance
cos by now even you must think it's better when we run in synch
so that both of us can take the distance

and now,though you have run and for so long
somehow we made it this far to carry on

And I say all things come in time but you need reasons to define
why you feel untrue
and I dont think we're made of glass but if we are it's those who've cracked that the light shines through
and you and I will carry on

and you know I tried and for so long
through it all we will pass them by to carry on.
Track Name: Chemicals
If its down to which of us is most wrong I don't know where to begin
but if it's a self-pitying contest,we both know I will win -
hands down - and that's appropriate as it seems that's always how you find me
I'm well aware of my fair share of blame you don't always have to remind me

of these lines that I can't cross, I've drawn to keep myself in
these chemicals are wearing off,and all the lies are wearing thin

so keep your hands down Love,we don't need to cause a scene
and calm yourself,there's no offence here
at least none that I mean
you said that you cant take me anywhere unless its at your loss
i know what you mean,this can't go on,I have to be the one to draw

these lines that I can't cross, I've drawn to keep myself in
these chemicals are wearing off,and all the lies are wearing thin

you said you cant take it any more so I wont push the point
and you can have the reasonable doubt

(the chemicals are wearing off)

these lines that I can't cross, I've drawn to keep myself in
these chemicals are wearing off,and all the lies are wearing thin
as words unspoken come undone,these are the lines that i cant cross
or I am left here on my own,these chemicals are wearing off
Track Name: Say more,Talk less
You can read the dictionary from cover to cover
and for all the time you spend
still you will be none the wiser
you,you use thoughts but dont employ facts
because they're not what you're trying to prove
a novel idea to take a page from your book
to show you exactly what it is you do

you get yourself in the way it so obscene
someone as eloquent as you
should always mean what you say and say what you mean
and say more but talk a little less frequent

so let's agree to a silence and not converse unless we must
because all your frames of reference lie neglected and gathering dust
and you can read the dictionary from cover to cover
but your simple mind and unsubtle tongue always make jokes of one another

and they get in the way,its so obscene
because they're not what you're trying to prove
a novel idea to take a page from your book
to show you exactly what it is you do

you can know every word to every poem ever written but appreciate
that when it comes to speaking your own mind you are so illiterate

you talk too much and dont say enough
no you're not happy,i know you're not happy now
you keep your eye on yourself,no love for anyone else
you are the dictionary definition
Track Name: Neighbourhoods
Am I reminiscing over something that hasn't happened yet?
Or is this a memory that just gets in the way?
because I feel it there buried in the increments
of all the conversations and words that we don't say

it comes on with no warning
times when I cant sleep at night and days when I feel most alive and

run through the neighbourhoods
shouting out your name but no reply
came calling back and no you never came
you need to know that years from now,if all of this has changed then I will not
I'll still be here,as the memory remains

I saw our face at the window you used to let me in
and my reflection like I'm still standing there
now I've been replaced by dream catchers and medicine
and you've been replaced by silence an quiet care

And it lingers with no reason
times where I cant sleep at night and days when I feel most alive and run through the neighbourhoods
calling out your name but no reply came calling back
and no you never came,you need to know that years from now
if all of this has changed then I will not,I'll still be here
as the memory remains

Still there is no reason
times where I feel most alive
Remember when I stil felt alive and ran through the neigbourhoods
screaming out your name but no reply came calling back
and no you never came,you need to know that years from now
if all of this has changed then I will not,I'll still be here
as the memory remains
Track Name: Incase you forget
Slow and broken - two words I use the most to describe
these useless tokens I thought that I'd left out and though I'm worn
Im open to the explanation of how you're so much more than coping
with all the things I cant you need to

hear with your eyes what your ears cant see
savour the best 'till last

I reacted so badly for so long i was just too distracted
by all that I was not
and I kept myself captive
but now this energy that i have found relaxes
and,incase you forget,remember

hear with your eyes what your ears cant see
savour the best 'till last and

even with my lack of understanding,I can see you now
and if you ever forget
hear with your eyes what your ears cant see
savour the best 'till last

and thats what this is to me.
Track Name: Slugworth
I have a limited option of words that I can use to let you know
because I've been through a wealth of repeating myself
and I still have a distance to go
see,my problem is I want to know everything
and at the same time know nothing at all
I'd cause my own demise at the price of the prize
and no surprise every time I fall

are you happy right now where you lay?
and is this the numbness you need?
I don't mean to be terse but when roles are reversed you'll find
it's you that cant forget me

you said one time makes me look a liar
and that two times makes me look a fool
tell me what else is it you require
and what further evidence proves
that it's all that's been done to you
has now become the thing clung at the back of your brain
why must you pour your contempt over every attempt I make to make you content again?

are you happy right now where you lay?
to companion your sweetest regret?
because you can shout me out but in time you'll find out it's the one thing that you cant forget

and see I have a limited option of words that I can use to let you know
why must you pour your contempt over every attempt I make to help you to let it go?

are you happy right now where you lay?
and is this the numbness you need
I don't want to make things worse but when roles are reversed
you'll find you can't forget me.
Track Name: The Glorious Dead
You look back and kick snow over all the tracks that you have laid
how can I follow in your footsteps when I cant see the path you've made
and how can I look up to anyone who was never even there?
because you're too distant to be relevant and too cold for us to care

and I look back over the times I blindly followed in your way
and all you do just serves to remind me that theres nothing left to say

because if you live by your own terms you're going to end up so lonely
that's why I've taken the time to clear my mind of everything that you told me

and I look back over the times I blindly followed in your way
you know I never make eye contact
and my breathing betrays me still
and if our words are really weapons
then we both just fire at will
destroying everything and nothing untill only smoke surrounds
and we're left buried in dead silence with no mans land for common ground

and we look back over times we blindly followed in your way
and all the words we left unspoken fall to ruin and decay

because if you live by your own terms you're going to end up so lonely
that's why I've taken the time to clear my mind of everything that you told me
and as your head falls back into bloodshot skies
your eyes meet mines but don't recognize my face stood out in a crowd because you don't even know me


as I look back on the times we blindly followed our own ways
and all the time and precious breath used up on all the words we waste

because if you live by your own terms you're going to end up so lonely
that's why I've taken the time to clear my mind of everything that you told me
and as your head falls back into bloodshot skies
your eyes meet mines but don't recognize my face stood out in a crowd because you don't even know me
Track Name: Monsters
Years ago I created a monster
that I thought I could always outrun
but in time you begine to blur thelines
what is here that is still mines
and what have I become?
and I know your patience is wearing thin but it seems my excuses are the thinnest of all
I didn't even get to taste the pride before the fall

and my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
and I stumble over words that I can't say
and I've grown so tired of running knees grow weak
but it's far,its far too late for that

You and I we're not so different
infact,we are far too much alike
we both tried,we both imbibed 'till it was deep inside and it pushed out
everything in its sight
look me in the eye, you made a vow,you said you swore
that you'd love it to death and would never give it up
look how far all our commitments got us now

and all the things that we became
it seems we've only got ourselves to blame
because all the things that we've become
are direct results of all the things we've done

all these warnings we had they felt just like monsters under your bed
tell me how do you fell,all these years on,they sleep beside you instead

and my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
and I stumble over words that I can't say
and I've grown so tired of running knees grow weak
but it's far,it's far too late for that
Track Name: The Automatic
I am a hoarder, I collect the useless phrases you throw away
and I redress them just to use them to describe my own life
they say the healthiest pursuit's to move and change
how can I change my point of view when I cant move all of these things still in my sight that give me
no reason to shine,no reason to try no reason at all

what to try,what if these fears come racing in?
what if the words don't mean a thing?
what am I,what if these fears cave me in and I'm left with no words

let's take some time to separate the you from me,the me from you
'till I am gone
you can decide which one of your faces you want to use
something I thought you'd appreciate, the way The Automatic keeps driving me on
to the point either way I'm going to loose and have no
no reason to shine,no reason to try no reason at all

what to try,what if these fears come rushing in?
what if the words don't mean a thing?
what am I,what if these fears cave me in and The Automatic wins?

no reason to shine,no reason to try
no reason at all
Track Name: Eulogy
I've been waiting patiently on someone elses input on what I should say
its true
my mannequin-featured friend I know you didn't see it ending up this way
not you

and I'm not quite sure of the relevance but I'm sure it's on my side
and time won't ever fail to prove me

right back at the start when you tore everything apart,proceeded to advance and go
headlong into deep water when you really should have known there is no second chance
and I'm not quite sure of the evidence but at least it lets me know
that it was not kept in check,your decadence has swallowed whole

all of your hopes
all of your dreams
all of the spaces that lie in between
you know that just to say you've lived through a struggle really isn't enough,
and all that you've known
and all that you've built
as everything comes apart at the seams
you know that just to say I think that I love you really isn't enough

leave me hanging by a thread,I'll be singing you out,I'll be singing you out
you said you'd see me at the end,I'll be singing you out,I'll be singing you out again

just like you said you'd do for me

and I'm not quite sure of the relevance and I think the point gets lost
and you're left with the ashes and remnant ,was it worth it now it's cost you

all of your hopes
all of your dreams
all of the spaces that lie in between
you know that just to say you've been through a struggle really isn't enough
and all that you've known
and all that you've built
as everything comes apart at the seams
you know that just to say I think that I love you really isn't enough

I'll be singing you out.